Love Never Dies
Last Friday I faced one of the biggest Surrender challenges of my life
Given that I’ve been teaching Surrender all month it’s no surprise, but it’s still hard.
About a week ago now, I made a decision for love
That on the outside looked like it would end up costing me love.
I helped my best-friend of 17-years,
my heart companion, my soul dog, die.
She wasn’t sick.
Her body no longer worked the way it needed for her to
Be the vibrant, jubilant, beautiful being she had always been.
When I came home the Sunday before Easter after leading a 3-day retreat
the entire house smelled like death.
No matter how much I cleaned, or straightened, I couldn’t clear it away.
And by Monday, I had to surrender to the fact that it was time for her to go.
And although I didn’t know it at the time,
inside I became very afraid that Love was again going to leave me.
I have come to believe that the thought of losing love
is one of things we fear most.
We will do most anything to avoid feeling that kind of pain.
Or sometimes do everything to run straight into and sit in the pain,
suffering to make ourselves feel alive and connected to the one that has left.
I’ve gone that route before –
when my father died, when my engagement relationship ended –
Avoiding the pain or festering in the belief that love had been stripped away from me.
This time I made a different choice.
I chose to Surrender.
And in that surrender what I found was sadness and tears, yes of course
But I also found through Surrender, I was able to be 100% present for every single moment of this experience (still am).
And what I’ve received in return was this…
Peace in my heart
And proof that Love Never Dies.
It just changes form.
While there is sadness in the waves of any loss
Love doesn’t get taken away from us,
in fact more love comes in when we surrender our attachment to the packaging
What has been your experience of love when a person or being you’ve loved has left your life through death or a breakup or some other situation?
What happened to that love? And what happened to your heart?
I’d love to hear your comments below.